[s]miling with tears

2005-05-02T22:56:00.000+08:00

relink me ((x
pinkprincess-penelope.blospot.com

2005-04-02T18:04:00.000+08:00

plain.
nothing.
drop.
dead_

2005-03-24T17:55:00.000+08:00

lalala.
today is sports meet.
ta-da.
at 9am cin,kat n pene 'escaped'.
but the ez-links were with e consellors.
we took a taxi to mcdonalds with 2 other sec3 girls who r plannin 2 escape too.
and we stayed there for 2hrs.
there is only the few of us.
at arnd 10plus.
more students came into mcdonalds.
at 1045 we left.
headed back to e stadium.
ta-da.
n we reached safely.
the consellors din even knw they've hold our ez-links for 2hrs.
conclusion;
we are just pro. that's why.
sian.
i dun feel like talkin bout the sports event lah.
wateva.
i tink our sch won.

lalala.
im currently bored.
ohyes.
tml im watchin the eye10 with my dear CINDY.
jus e 2 of us.
n u shud knw wat happens if its e only e 2 of us.
yeah gd luck 2 us. (;

haiz.
i think my hair is gettin worse.
its becumin dry again.
sad lah.
dun care le.
i've done wat i can to it.
bought e damn shampoo.
$40 0k.
n bought the cream for splitends.
$36 ok.
yeah n it still turned out like tat.
lalala.
i love 'lalala'.
((;

2005-03-19T10:50:00.000+08:00

cin n me were sms-in one another this morning.
n this was how the sms-es turn out;
cin- hahaha. im not crazy. im sufferin frm tis kulu brain disease wher your brain's rootin n fungi n algae grows on it n mushrm pops outta ya skin pores;
cin- no im not mad. tts prefectly fine. cos u're in a worser state. bamboo shoots outta yr pores n onions grow outta yr vagina;
pene- ohh so sad. cry. pene's cryin. fine u wanna continue?! lets continue. pumpkins burst outta yr asshole n leaves pop outta yr head;
pene- nope im not crazy ok!ginger roots pop outta yr asshole n bamboo shoots outta yr eyeball;
cin- n carrot moves in n outta ya pussy. sounds lyk masturbatin.
pene- hahaha. imagine all those scenes together. haha. n e product is zengyuan! Ta-da.

hahaha.
cute huh?
this is the description of zengyuan.
e penkniferboy!
he rocks a hell lot!!!

2005-03-19T10:12:00.000+08:00

this holiday was overall a quite fun one.
mon;
went to rebond n cut my hair.
went to orchard to cut wif cin.
wanted some kinda funky hairstyle but it din turned out tat funky.
jus normal.
spent arnd 150bucks on hair le.

tues;
went to watch boogeyman.
yeah it was quite ok.
i freaked out in e cinema though.

wed;
hahaha.
this was the funnest.
went to e sentosa beach wif cin.
we reached sentosa without even knwin e place.
n we managed to get 2 e beach though thru 'thick n thin'.
haha.
we played in e sea.
took photos in ther.
some crazy photos.
n we din knw e grp of guys beside was lookin.
they were canoein n jus suddenly came forward 2 say hi.
'may we get 2 knw u?'
n we jus ran off.
haha.
ohyes n we lost our pinky ring.
in e same beach, in e same sea, on e same day and almost at e same time.
cin was sayin;
may e 2 rings meet.
haha.
then our flim finished.
so we were all drenched n we jus board e bus 2 go 2 e 7-11 2 buy another roll of flim.
then we board e bus again back 2 e same beach.
n we took lotsa pictures on e beach.
sad ones were all MY ideas.
im a sadist.
so wat?
cin gave those gay ones.
hahaha it was crazy.
then it was evenin time.
so we went 2 wash up.
n outside e toilet.
we saw e grp of guys agian.
they were shoutin;
hey haven't go hm huh?
c we all got fate leh.
u all cannot avoid destiny;
n we jus pretended not 2 c them.
n went into e toilet.
those crazy freaks.
haha.
n e worst part is comin.
haha.
u'll nvr believe wat happened in e toilet.
we changed our clothes outside e bath cubicle.
changed e underwear outside ther.
cin covered me wif towels n i changed then its her turn.
ppl were lookin at us.
haha
who cares.
e queue was long.
yeah then we went for a 'romantic' dinner.
n then e musical fountain.
then we went hm at arnd 10plus.
hahaha.
i cant wait 2 c all those photos taken!!

blah blah blah.
i love that wednesday.
haha.

2005-03-13T00:12:00.000+08:00

i really really hate laohuang man.
she is the bloody bitch.
she complained 'bout my attire.
for sure.
n she said i've not been payin attention in cls.
nice shit.
she said tt she cant help but to pay special attention to e 3 of us.
'cos she said e reason was we 3 names r always in her head.
no matter wat she hav 2 still observe us.
beautiful shit man.
n jus now durin e conference.
she asked me lotsa stupid qns.
n i jus say i dunno i dunno all e way.
aft tat my dad was not happy wif my attitude n scolded me.
how nice e world is becoming.

aft tuition went shopping wif cin.
haha its crazy.
n we spent 100bucks.
on shopping.
unbelievable.
we rock man!
i bought a wallet, pencilbox, slippers, sunglasses, tube some small stuffs.
n they added up 2 a hundred?!
i din realise until i calculated.
yeah nvm.
shopping spree for once in a long time.
there ought to b more shoppin spree.
its fun.
its fun spending money.

ahh.
i cant wait for monday!
its a hair day.
i knw cin u're dying frm e wait.
nvm its 1 more day.
jus ONE ok.
haha.
i'm also dying frm e wait anyway.

2005-03-11T18:40:00.000+08:00

tml is the parents tcher conference.
sian.
i knw huang will tell my parents some stupid stuffs again.
stuffs like tugging out shirt, ankle socks, coloured rubberbands.
all these stupid stuffs which my parents dun even care.
hopefully she wun say with me arnd.

hmm.
today actually wanna ponn cca one.
then go shopping.
we even planned the shopping list le.
then cin need to go 2 band.
so i went 4 cca also loh.
jus went ther, sit down n slack.
then go hm.
it's hell slack.
i like it that way ;)

cin n me r starting 2 like these glittery glittery stuffs.
haha.
we bought glitter hairbands and clips.
it's cool ok.
we hav ought 2 get more. (:

ohh man.
i really really can't wait for monday.
looking forward 2 my new hairstyle really really much.
it's gonna b a fun holiday.
throw all the stress aside n ENJOY!! x))

2005-03-10T16:03:00.000+08:00

ohh dear.
my eng n chi results aren't gd.
esp my eng.
there isn't much hope for my new hp.
but at least i did ok for my maths n sci.

ahh.
i cant wait for monday n wednesday!!
monday im gonna rebond my hair n cut my hair.
wednesday is BEACH day!!
yay!
its gonna b fun.
n there is gonna b a bbq.
ohh dunno if e bbq is still on.
sighh.
cos e no. of ppl comin is pathetic.
so most probably its gonna b a steamboat bah.
hey u ppl.
can u all jus come for e bbq?!
for some fun.
dammit.
ahhh.
let me knw if u wanna come along kies?
u're always invited.

2005-03-05T09:56:00.000+08:00

yay!
exams r over.
flung all e bks out e windows!!
haha.
time for some fun.
some craziness.
shopping!

hmm i might.
i said might.
i might get a new handphone!
ahh.
im so excited.
it all depends on my results.
if my dad is satisified.
yeah i gonna get a new hp!
hmm i really studied hell hard 4 this common test.
i hope my results will be ok.
im very worried 'bout my eng.
i might fail.
pray hard_

n my mum says if i get into triple science nxt yr.
she might.
i said might again.
cos some promises r jus meant 2 b broken.
u nvr knw.
anyway.
my mum she if i got into 3 sci.
she'll get me a i-pod.
or a laptop.
or both!!

ahh.
i mus study really really hard this yr.
but for now.
it's PLAYTIME! x))

2005-02-22T19:42:00.000+08:00

i've jus glanced thru' 2 chi chapters.
n i tink nothing went into my head.
shit lah.
i dun care.
i jus dun feel like studyin today.
when the days r drawin really really near then i go pia like mad.
yeah n i dun tink i'll do well for tis common test.
n the science 'light' chap is so complicated.
i can understand a little little bit only.
oh well.
gd luck 2 me.

ohh damn.
i'm lookin forward for the common tests 2 be over.
n i'm gonna go shoppin!
shop like mad.
i dun care.
n take photos!(=
it's gonna b so fun.
ahh i can't wait!!

2005-02-20T13:18:00.000+08:00

it's weekend again.
i din do anything much.
din really study.
haiz.
jus dun feel like.

hmm i jus got my retainers yst.
damn it's so uncomfortable.
u noe there's this plastic that hav 2 b placed stuck to the mouth at the top.
i cant pronouce certain words properly.
all e 's' sounds.
ohh damn it sounds disgustin.
n i cant eat properly either.
it's so much worse than the braces.
n it's gonna b like tis for 1 yr.
1 yr!!!
u only can take it out for brushin n special occasions.
ohh tis is torturous.

i jus brought a new specs.
those kinda thick black frame ones.
haha.
my dad said i look like a nerd.
yeah i dun care.
but he is so nice to buy for me.
i din intended to really buy it when i plead him.
surprisingly he agreed.
haha.
he've got bonues for work i think.
he said he wanna buy new study tables for me n my sis!
yeah!
mayb i wanna get a cute one.
or jus a simple one?
yeah leave all tat for aft common test.
ahh.
pene u've got 2 study!!!

2005-02-18T22:22:00.000+08:00

cindy rocks!
she helped me change my blogskin(=
haha

yeah i've been seein mrsoon for almost 1 wk liao.
jus bcos of some damn act-big consellors.
i hate those act-big consellors!
f**k

hmm hav been gettin into troubles wif lao huang too.
tat's bcos she keeps pickin on us.
cin talked to her today.
there is a deal.
we cant talk in cls.
be in proper uniform during her lessons.
n she will leave us alone. (=

sch has been shitty these few days.
n i dun feel like studyin even though common tests r drawin near.
ahh
i hate my life!

2005-01-26T22:58:00.000+08:00

haha.
today sch is full of surprises.
morning assembly got spotcheck.
din get caught.
cin did anyway. needless to say.

then it was lifescience.
kat said she wanted to go toilet.
so i went wif her.

at e toilet....
kat said"hey lets take foto leh"
me"later soon see we die"
but still took anyway.
we were posting in front of the mirror.
"not nice. delete. take another one"

Suddenly...
"Hey girls! Get out!"
so the story continues..
did 100 squats.
40 only actually.
socks gone.
gotta see him every morning for one week.
kat's fone consicated for a week.

and aft sch.
kat wanted to take e fone back.
lied to mr soon.
mr soon knew.
wrote reflection..

Wow so happening.
I simply love sch today.
esp mr soon.

2005-01-21T18:06:00.000+08:00

hey
Happy hari raya to all the malays out there.

Today i am at home.
study.
haiz.
actually i wanted to go out.
sms edc, Charmine and Zenda.
asked them and they din reply.
felt so unwelcomed.
but anyway tried not to tink 'bout that.

woke up at 11 sumthing this morning.
looks like too late to call anyone out.
so decided to jus stay at home to study.
Yeah good chice oso.
I completed all my homework.
left eng lit only.

Yeah getting hardworking this few days.
I am getting into triple science.
I am topping the class.
i am toppping the sch.
Level position 1st- penelope!!
fat hope.
Aim for the sky.
At least u will fall on the trees.
If u aim for the trees.
U will only fall onto the ground.

i am bored.
time for dinner.

2005-01-20T18:44:00.000+08:00

yeah 3 days holiday.
i'm leading a simple life.
nothing much happenin 2 me recently.
except cin.

yeah.
i got my cca settled.
but i got 2 ccas.
ten is like i dunno which one to concentrate.
one got SYF.
ten e other one i want to strive to get into e sch team.
yeah loh.
after the edc audition ten c how loh.
mayb gonna drop one ba.

mr soon is back today.
after 2 days of rest.
how i wish he will nvr be back.
i managed to escape his 'hey you! come here! take off ur socks...'
yeah usual stuffs again.
aspects of sch.

2005-01-07T21:14:00.000+08:00

Things that i've accomplished tis week.
*settled cca
*done all h/w(no more copying early in e morning)
*cut down on tv
*cut down on computer
*paid attention in class
*read through stuffs i dun understand
*leaving shopping for weekends

Yeah! Pene, u totally rawks!!
I gotta keep tis up.
Bye bye NPCC!
I WILL miss you. (;

2005-01-02T11:59:00.000+08:00

tml sch reopens le.
wow the holiday passes so fast.
jus in a blink & it's over.
ok already promise must work hard this year.
Kat, u said u will top the sch. (;
haha.
we 3 will top the sch.
-err.. unlikely...
but i'll try(:

2004-12-25T13:25:00.000+08:00

Yeahh!!
Today is Chirstmas day.
Merry X'mas to everyone out there! (;

2004-12-05T23:08:00.000+08:00

Internet has been down for a few days.
Stupid.
So bored is few days.
Nobody called me out.
Rottin at home.

Tis year seems to hav pass very fast.
Very very fast.
Its already December.
Christmas is comin!
Its gonna be a start of a new year.

It's gonna be a different year.
A new year.
Maybe a new me.
I told myself to change for e better.
I hav 2 settle my cca fast.
Reduce my shoppin & playing & fooling around.
Hav been neglecting my studies tis year.
Until e end of year exams ten i realised there r so many stuffs i dunno.
Rushin like hell e last minute.
N everything turned out shit.
Look at my final exams results.
I took such a long time 2 realise.
Realise y it turned out like tat.
Realise i hav not been concentrating.

So so so..
I gonna change for e better.
Pay attention in class.
Reduce shoppin.
Reduce does'nt mean dun hav.
Be more organised.
Im gonna try 2 be like tat...

2004-12-01T01:53:00.000+08:00

Yippee.
I change my blogskin le.
Jus done.
Okies.
Im gonna slp le.
Good nites.
=p

2004-11-25T14:46:00.000+08:00

It's been such a long time since i blog.
Blogging again.

This holidays is gonna be a boring one.
Im so bored now.
I playing Monopoly wif my sis.
But we always stop in e middle of e game.
Cos its boring.
U noe wats my counter.
Its a hat.
N im winning i tink.
I hav got more money.
But she hav houses le.
Im tryin 2 make my blog long.
Nvm.

Sent Cin off at airport e other day.
And she says my sister is weird.
I agree.
I dunno y is she like tat tat day.

And i've got tuition le.
So fast.
Im not slackin next year.
Im workin hard.
I guess i hav slack too much tis year.
N next year.
My school textbooks r gonna be colurful.
In wrappin paper.
Hahas.
Cin ones too.
Craziness.
It makes studies fun.
N my daily planner is..
Betty Boob!!
Very colourful.
Kiddy.
Shiny.
But i like it.

Went 2 rent a romance book e other day.
After i sent Cin off.
E book is wonderful.
S*x stuffs.
Almost 1/4 is sex.
About errr.
Bathin together.
On e bed.
Doin it.
It describes well.
Good book.
Wonderful.
'Mr Maybe'.
I finished e book in 2 days.
Cant put down.
Haha.
Ooppss.

2004-10-27T22:35:00.000+08:00

Went 2 bugis wif cin yst.
Turned out 2 be a weird day.
Saw a lot of weird ppl.

A pair of lens.
Holdin hands walkin round e shoppin centre.

2 pairs of gays.
They wore same exactly sme clothes.
Same shirt. Same pants. Same shoe.

A weird guy.
Hair one side long one side short.

A homosexual.
He or is ‘she’. I shall call ‘it’.
It is talkin on e fone.
E voice is not like gal nor guy.
It is tall. Cant possibly be a gal.
Sure is sex change.

Weird day.

Today started off badly.
I overslept.
Din set e alarm tats y.
Dad speed 2 fetch me 2 skool.
E moment I step into e skool gate.
I got caught by soon.
Shirt out.
Different earrings.
Si min was wif me.
She got ankle socks.
Made 2 take off her socks.
I did 50 squats wif another guy hu din put his nametag only.
Soon jus loves torturin ppl.

2004-10-22T15:44:00.000+08:00

Haiz. Im dead le.
Look at my SA results.
Its so low lo.
My class position is 34 out of 40.
Tat is counted e last few u noe??
I dunno lah.
Y e results drop so much de?
Wat e hell m i doin?
I dunno lah.
Fcuk.
Fuck e whole world...

2004-10-14T21:28:00.000+08:00

YES!!
Exams r OVERR!!
OVERRRRR!!! =)
OVERRRR!! =0
Hahas.
Crazy.
Have been shoppin since yst.
Today cin & i watch White Chicks.
E show is jus totally full of craps.
Its nice.
Funny.
Go watch!!
Hahas.

N tis holiday.
Im readin books.
Story books.
Im spendin a lot on books.
Its already about $50.
Books rocks.
Cos im a nerd.
=p
-----------------so happy.exams r over!------------------

2004-10-08T14:41:00.000+08:00

Today we stand on e yellow line.
I din noe it is tat front.
We were like very extra.
Its damn a lot ppl lookin.
N noe wat..
We will b standin dere again on Mon.
3 retardards.
Nvm.
I dun care.
I hav 2 bite my teeth real hard 2 prevent myself from laughin.
Jus like wat i did today.
I dunno wat will happen if i broke out laughin.
All tis wun hav happen if not 4 tat stupid tch.
Damn her.
Yst we 3 were talkin n laughin durin flag risin.
E tch saw us n asked we all sing e athem in front.
In front of soon.
Everything started frm dere.
My earings.
My shoe lace.
My socks.
E yellow line.

Today is Sci & Eng Lit EOY paper.
E sci was hell difficult.
I din hav time 2 finish.
Haiz.
All my efforts down e drain.
I was studyin very hard.
Haiz.
N when i looked at section C.
I knew im dead.
Its hell difficult.
Anyway its over.
I must do well 4 Chinese.
Prove 2 e frog princess tat i can do well..
without payin much attention in class.
Ok i shall start studyin at 4pm.
Restin 4 one hour...

2004-09-26T21:31:00.000+08:00

Heyy.
Cin helped me change my blogskin.
Cool one ah??
Hahas.
Anyway.
Thanks cin.

Tmr is skool.
Sian.
Moment of Force??
I dun understand a single ting.
Got 2 study le.
EOY exams r coming.
Ahhh.
Im scared.
Got to do well if not i dunno wat will happen 2 me...

2004-09-25T22:26:00.000+08:00

Hahas.
I did "greatly" 4 oral.
Haizzz..
Anyway i noe i flunging.
Damn it.
Wadeva its over..

Me n Kat had a stayover at Cin's hse.
Crazy.
We watch e ghost movie ' One Missed Call'.
Me n Cin were practially coverin our eyes 4 bout 3/4 of e show.
Kat was brave lah.
She said she watched e whole ting.
Its was very late at nite lorx.
Or shud i sae it was very early in e mornin.
Anyway its scary 2 watch ghost movie at tat time of e dae.
I will nvr do tat again.

By e way i touched a lot of Cin's tis few daes. =p

2004-09-23T21:51:00.000+08:00

Tml is my oral.
N im not prepare.
Im scared.
But there is noting 2 prepare.
Hope i will do well tml.
Tell myself not 2 stammer.

Oh ya.
There was tis day.
Tuesday.
Me n Cin were filmin e teachers.
We film e Miss Ang.
Ten e frog princess.
We zoomed into her mouth.
Her lips r so disgustin.
Anyway its was fun filmmin e tchs.

N yst PE lesson me & Cin were tryin 2 touch one another boobs.
We were screamin in e hall.
Like crazy.
Cin touched a lot.
She is experienced lah.
Tats y.
N Kat.
Dun tink tat u r safe ah..
Hahas.

2004-09-18T22:29:00.000+08:00

Yst was a hell mad day.
Firstly durin e chinese lesson.
Me n cin were countin how many 'hor' our dear tch says.
N its adds up to 171 'hor's in 2 hrs.
Unbelieveable.
Ten durin science.
A few of us pulled our socks hell high.
Cos e Dicky was naggin at us bout ankle socks e other day.
Hahas.
N i can c tat dicky wanted 2 laugh but tryin 2 stop it by coughin i tink ehhh??
Ten we got e damn maths remedial.
I was practially not listenin 2 wat e china maid in e front was tokin about.
Cin, Kat n me were touchin one another boobs.
Hell disgustin sia.
I felt so dirty.
Kat hit e bulleye.
Cin hit e underpart directly?!?!
Lieozz..
We r jus gross.
Tml is Cin burfdae.
Now im wrappin e present.
Its tirin work...

2004-09-13T20:54:00.000+08:00

I dread today.
I dunno wats e problem wif me today.
I tink there is a lot of problem wif me lah.
Maybe im jus moody.
Not feelin well.
Wadever.
Go 2 hell...

2004-09-09T18:29:00.000+08:00

Yst was a borin dae.
durin e hsk tingy.Its 7 hrs lorx.
Anyway im lookin forward 2 Sarurdae.
Hahas.
Kat n me hav planned 2 go 2 Pasir Ris Park.
I tink it will be a very sporty dae.
We r playin a lot of sports lah.
N madness is we r havin a picnic.
I hope our timing will not go wrong tat day.
I tink it will.
Esp wen there is e Escape Theme Park n Wild Wild Wet.
I tink we will most of our time dere ah??
Its too theming rite??
We will b having fun.hahas.
Not forgettin cin.
Wait 4 ur wonderful present hah..
Miss u a lot.

2004-09-03T23:34:00.000+08:00

A few daes never blog le eh??
So happie lorx..
Todae is e last dae of skool 4 e term.
A 1 week holidae!!
Is not reallie a lot..
Plus there is a damn lot of hw.
N e IT project.
Our group is DOOMED.
Nobody seemed 2 care at all.
Hahas.
We r e worst i tink.
But hu cares??

2004-08-30T21:41:00.000+08:00

Standing by,
All the way.
Here to help you through your day.

Holding you up,
When you are weak,
Helping you find what it is you seek.

Catching your tears,
When you cry.
Pulling you through when the tide is high.

Absorbing your voice
When you talk.
Standing by when you learn to walk.

Just being there,
Through thick and thin,
All just to say, you are my friend.

2004-08-30T21:05:00.000+08:00

Tml is teacher's day.
However i dun even look forward 2 it.
I only look forward 2 meetin my pri skul friends.
I bought teacher's day present.
Only 4 e form teacher.
Cos i feeling 'sad' 4 her tat she's leavin 2 gif birth.
Hmm..its sort of a farewell present 4 her.
But she might take our class again next year.
I cross my heart n pray tat she wun b my form teacher again.
I bought presents 4 my pri skul teachers oso.
Its bcos i respect them.
Not 4 farewell present.
Hahas.

2004-08-28T11:34:00.000+08:00

I miss my primary school life.
I miss my friends.
But we seem to be driftin further.
Our friendship seem to be disappearin.
Bit by bit.
The friendship bond is breakin.
slowly.n slowly.
Can i turn the time back?
When we were so happy together.
When the teachers dont pick on me.
When there arent so many difficulties like wat i facin now.
Can i have all these wonderful times again?
No i cant.
No matter how stupid life is going to be.
I've to continue.
At least i still have friends.
Even though they are different.
They are still wonderful friends.
I will treasure this friendships.

2004-08-28T11:09:00.000+08:00

Today i nvr go np again.
Suppose 2 be havin activity now.
N me..
Im slackin at home.
I dunno.
I jus dun like np.
Gettin sick.
I tink im quittin.
End of tis year mayb.
September got test 4 a rank.
N im still like dunno anyting.
All e drills n stuffs.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh..
I wanna die.
Wat a miserable life.
I dunno wat cca can i join...
Mayb i will take up sports.
Hmmm..
But im no good in sports.
Band??
No good in music.
Im jus useless.
No talents.
Everydae slack.
n slack.
Livin 4 e sake tat i hav 2 live.
Haizz..
I hate myself!!!

2004-08-26T20:32:00.000+08:00

Todae is a stupid normal dae.
Oh ya..
Todae kat n cin somehow quarrel.
They r ok now.
N im somehow like a middleman.
Hahas.
Jus over chocos.
Mus b in bad mood lah..
i dunno.
Gotta study 4 chinese test tml.
bb=p

2004-08-24T20:40:00.000+08:00

Oh man...
Damn it...
Its jus too late..
Arghhh!!!
Wat m i suppose 2 do now???
Can someone tell me..
I hate e whole damn world..
Y does everyting turns out wrong...
I'm troubled.
But nobody's dere 2 help me.
2 solve tis damn ting.
I guess i gotta solve tis miself..
Haizzzz...
Mummy where r u??? *sob*
Life is full of ups & downs..
Y am i always facin downs???

2004-08-21T15:14:00.000+08:00

Yeah..
I finally made up my mind le.
I shud rite??
Hahax..
Yah i shud.
But im scared.
There r lots of tings tat im scared.
But i noe i shud.
I will do it.
QUIT NP!! =p

2004-08-17T20:50:00.000+08:00

A lot of days never blog le.
Hahas.
Today went 2 take mi new specs.
Dun find it really tat cool.
Hmm...
Its not cool at all..
Jus a normal damn specs.
Sian.
Today is a mad day.
Hahas..
Feeling great today.
But mind quite confused.
Considerin sum tings.
Shud i or shudn't i???
Im so 'luan'..
Can sumbody tell mi wat 2 do..
Oh man..
Its not a easy decision..
Tinkin..
Tinkin..
Tinkin away..

2004-08-14T19:20:00.000+08:00

Today is a stupid dae.
Boring.
Yst i got slight fever.
Todae better le.
Stupid dae.
Hate e whole wide world.
I wanna go sleep.
Live in my own world.
Avoid all realities.
Tat will only happen in my dreams.
N when im asleep...

2004-08-12T16:12:00.000+08:00

Todae during skul..
I tink i hav offended sumone.
Really din mean 2 do tat.
Jus wanted 2 hav fun.
Din noe tat will happen.
Sorry...

2004-08-12T15:59:00.000+08:00

I jus felt so sad,depressed recently.
Yesterdae i jus quarrelled wif my best friend.
My 'best friend'..ever.mayb not anymore.
Still remember e daes in Primary skul.
We go mad.
We laughed.
We cried.
It jus seemed tat nobody in e skul dunno tat we r best friends.
It is jus so fun goin crazy 2gether.
Get into troubles 2gether.
We were jus like living in our own world.
I enjoyed those daes.
Mayb tat sort of daes will never cum again.

Yst i was real shocked.
U changed a lot.
Ur charater.
Its much different.
U r not wat i used 2 noe.
I was hurted.

To my ever best friend..
Whether we r still friends or not..
I will never forget e daes we had together..
E fun we had..
I noe i will missed them...

2004-08-11T18:57:00.000+08:00

Today after skul, went 2 spectacles shop.
Make a new pair of specs le.
Next week can go take.
E new pair is quite cool.
Or mayb shud i sae its too cool 4 skul.
I dunno.
But i tink shud b ok.
Not reallie tat cool.
Last week jus lost my contact lens.
So sad.
2nd time le.
Dad dun wanna buy another one 4 me le.
So i make specs lorx.
Hehe.c me in my new specs next week.
Yoohoo!!
Goin 4 dinner le..bb

2004-08-10T17:47:00.000+08:00

Today is a damn sian day.
I'm rottin at home.
Doin nothing.
Chattin e whole dae.
Not a very good mood.
Dunno y.
Tear a Energy poster.
Can't believe it.
I dun tear posters.
Totally out of my mind.

2004-08-09T22:26:00.000+08:00

Hey u guys dun hav 2 worry about me lah.
I'm fine.
Anyway thanks for your concern. hehe.
Nothing much happened tis few daes.
Yst i jus brought a new hi-fi set.
I dropped my discman and its spoilt.so sad.
Anyway anyway..wat is done is done.
No point feelin sad.
Wanna wish s'pore a "Happie Birthdae!"
Sumtimes i tink i hav almost evyting a teenage gurl needs.
But i feel i lack of sumting.
Its a happie family.
Family love.
I dunno but..
Mmmmm..
I dun hav a happy family.
Hahas. Very little noe bout tis.
Anyway quite used 2 how my family is now.
I dun feel sad or anyting.
I jus wanna b myself no matter wat happen.

2004-08-07T18:44:00.000+08:00

Sorry my blog is so incompleted. So plain. No tagboard. Will improve it soon.Kk?

2004-08-07T18:17:00.000+08:00

hai.its so sian.i dunno y.i feel troubled.
I hav made up my mind le.
I must go n try 2 like np.
Since i'm in np ten go like it, confine in it.
Tats it.
Y make urself suffer?
Evrytime wen there is activity.feel so sian.hate it.
Life is full of of ups n downs.
U live 2 solve all sorts of problems.
So i finally sort tat out.
I was tinkin tat whole nite.I cried.
Ten i came 2 a decision
Quit np. Or confide in it.
Confide in it was my decision.
So from 2dae onwards, confide in np.Go n like it.Enjoy..
Yap. Confide in it.
Jus be a little more displined once in a week.
Im not sure whether i can be more displined.
Mayb it takes time.cos im not born guai n displined.
But i wun b like very enthu.or wat.
Jus 2 enjoy np. Tats all.
Hmm. Havin problems solved, i feel much more relaxed.
Crying always help 2 me. Tink wat 2 do after u cry.
Dun only cry evrytime u hav problems. Solve them.
Hahax.Looks like sum sort of conselling sia.
Kk. I mus try 2 like np.
I noe i can. Gif me time.

2004-08-06T18:46:00.000+08:00

Hahax. today i go back mi primary skul.
Not a lot people go back leh.
Saw mr fong
Mad sia say i change a lot.
Ask a lot of questions.
ask me whether got boys chase me.
ask me if got boyfriend.Mad lohx.
Even if got oso wun tell u lorx.
He is so busybody.
Looking at mi primary skul, i realised hoe much i missed mi pri. skul life.
I really missed mi pri. skul life.
I wanna turn e time back.
After tat go out wif my friends.
Tats all. Sian.
Sorry Cin. Today cant go out wif u. Wun mind rite?
Hahax. Sum other dae kk?
I missed my primary skul life.

2004-08-05T21:37:00.000+08:00

Squeeziz my dear boobs.
Whloey balley u both r.
On my board chest hanging down.
Tender milky cutey boobs.
Lick u suck ur every drop.
How i love u my dear boobs.

Quoted by Cin. Instructed by cin 2 put tis up in mi blog. All Rights Reserved.

2004-08-04T16:32:00.000+08:00

Lieoz lieoz lieoz.
Jus now e np teacher-in-charge called me on e home phone.
Shit lah. Damn it.
"Hello, this is Mr Lee from cchms npcc. May i speak 2 Penelope pls?"
"Yes i am." My heart is jumpin. I knew it. F*ck
"I have known tat u did not turn up 4 e np trip 2 e neighbourhood police post."
"ermm.. yah."
"Is there any reason 4 tat"
"I did e PFT instead."
"Is there any reason 4 tat?"
I was silence 4 very long. I did not tok. Tat was so sickening but i was somehow scared. I did not noe wat 2 sae. I feel like slammin e fone down.but i noe i cant.
"Penelope?"
I remain silence for 10 seconds.
"Hello?"
"Yes"
"I dunno y."
"E teachers-in-charge has made e arragements 4 everything n u chose 2 go 2 PFT instead. I need a reason 4 tis."
I paused again. Long silence again. Wat can i tell him? I jus dun feel like goin. Tats a ans i almost wanted 2 tell tell him.
"I dun feel... I feel like doing PFT wif my friends."
Wat e hell. I said tat. Madness.
"Perfect answer. U feel like. Penelope, u can feel like doin lots of things. U feel like not cuming 2 skul.U feel like quitting np. U feel like u feel like. Wat if i say i feel like sendin u 2 e princpal? Wat if i say i feel like sending u 2 Mr Soon?"
Silence again. Wat e.. Its like so damn sickening. Only skipping activity once. Send ten send lah. I dun care.
"So wat do u tink i can do 2 make u change?"
Long silence. Wat u wanna do 2 me ten do lah. Seow. I tot of saying-dismiss me from np. Hahax but i noe tats not e answer he wan. How i noe wat he wan?
"I dunno."
"Tis doesn't seems like a good answer."
I paused. Damn it. Ten wat he wan? Cant he jus sae?
"Punishment."
"Do u tink tat will help? For me, i dun tink tat will help."
"Apology letter."
"All right. Good. So u rite me a apology letter. n other ten tat can u promise tat u will attend all np activities. Stste e promise in e letter too."
"ok."
Hahax tats so much simpler tan punishment.
"Pass me e letter tml after flag-rising at 4MD"
"ok."
Lieoz. Apology letter only. so easy lorx.
"So i dun wan 2 c u skip activities without any valid reason. Is tat ok?"
"Yes."
"ok."
"Sorry Mr Lee."
Cant believe i said sorry. Hahax. Madness.
"Bye."
"Bye."
Wat a 'wonderful' day. Damn it lah. Anywae anywae anywae.. i din regret not goin 4 e np ting. At least i did PFT wif cin. Hahax. I will not regret. It is always nicer 2 hav friens wif u. Agree?

2004-08-02T19:31:00.000+08:00

Today is my PFT. sian.miss by a bit get gold le. I not goin 2 care le. Today actually i need 2 go 4 np activity insteed of doin PFT 1. But i din go 4 np. i feel so bad. i tink all e np cadet got go lorx..except me. i tink im e worst np cadet le. sian.y so enthu de..i cant be enthu. Tats me. No one can control me. Wan me pump i pump lorx. I dun care le. i dun feel like goin ten tats too bad. Im not goin esp 2 a stupid neighbourhood police post. Oh no.sorry lorx.(sry if i offend any np cadet here..) Isnt doin PFT better than goin 4 a damn police post? Wat can u do at e police post?C wat e police do? For wat? Im not goin 2 b a police wen i grow up. I join np 4 e sake tat i need a cca. All rite enough of np. Lieox how can i lose 2 my YOUNGER sister 4 PFT. She will laugh at me de lorx.. Tis isnt fair. she sucks. do so well. Life jus isnt fair. I hate myself..

2004-07-31T20:47:00.000+08:00

Today is same like any other day..go cca le ten cum back do hw. juz now i jus help mi dad dye his hair..black.it was grey wif white hair last time. now its black. i ask him 2 dye black de so he go buy e dye lorx.n i dye 4 him..hahax. he looks a little younger now. Today is 31st le rite...hahax i so happy.tml i can get my monthly allowance le.tis month i totally broke le.so lets look forward 2 mi $200 tml..hehez. n i can spend again.go shop shop play play.tats wat money is for... Happie happie happie

2004-07-30T22:05:00.000+08:00

Hey tis is my first time creating a blog. Spend hours lookin 4 a skin..n up wif tis,qutie cute lah huh?? Anywae..yst i cut my hair. cut my fringe short le. cut layers now quite thin le. got a tail wen i tie up n pinky is goin mad of mi tail. e person had snap away her tail n shes cuttin hair again 2 get back tat stupid tail. wonder how short is it now...
hai.juz polish mi np shoe.sian neck so pain.hands a bit black. yuckzzz!! hahas i polish 1 only ten ask mi dad polish 4 me. hehex hu cares..